I surrender......

Okay so I know it's been ages since i updated here but i have been surrendering myself alot of negative engery and have not wanted to subject anyone else to it so it was all out of courtesy my one reader LOL. I finally had time to think this evening and tried not to over analyze my recent state of mind and have come to conclusions. I realize that things started to run amok in March. My dear friend and former coworker was in the midst of losing her husband and left work to care for him as she should have and ya know i think i have been grieving for the friends and co-workers i have lost in the recent past, I don't mean they died but have moved on to different things and i miss them alot. I had to hire new people and train them, it's really hard to train someone when you are the only one who knows what you are doing and not everybody learns, listens or uses common sense the way some other people do and it is very difficult to remember that sometimes. So I now declare myself in a state of surrender to God and let him guide me back the path I once was on. I like being positive, happy and nice. I hate being cranky, mean and fussy all the time. I hate being scatterbrained and disorganized, so I will remember to pray daily for the strength and courage to go back down a path of happiness and harmony in 2009. It's not really a resolution but a journey I am taking. I will keep you posted as to how the journey going. Just remember to think pretty pink and blue thoughts. ;)